[He absolutely cannot think about Astarion fucking him at both ends, because that way lies ruin. His ruin, specifically, and his ruin of his pants to begin with.
And yet:]
Interesting you bring that up. I have a surprise for you when next I see you.
[But then, without pause:]
The Black Divine. If only for the look on every magister's face when they see an elf in a seat of power above them all. I will not deny Corypheus' power is a tempting thing, if only to bring down Tevinter.
But the Black Divine (or the True Divine, as you would be forced to call me; the Black Divine is a mocking name, and frowned upon in Tevinter) can do that as well, preferably with a minimal of slaughter and death. It would be more difficult, admittedly, and I do not doubt I would have my fair share of trouble— though I think immediately dissolving the magisterium would force all those mages to rush to save their own fortunes and meager power instead of allying against me.
For a time, anyway. I suspect such a position would only end in assassination. But it would be a useful role for how long it lasted.
And I will not be forced to become a corrupted amalgam of red lyrium and a darkspawn, which is a plus.
[There's a slight pause, as if made by someone who knows damn well where they're heading and is debating if it's sensible to stoke both their fires. On the other hand: he can't really resist. Besides: he misses Astarion, and there's nothing wrong with indulging in a bit of fantasy while they're apart.]
I meant forced by the country at large, but I would not let them do that to you. If you are to be on your knees, Astarion— and you would be, in this scenario— it will be at my order and no one else's.
You would have to be discreet. No Divine is allowed any kind of attachment; we would be an illicit thing. And I know full well how much you enjoy being seen . . . do you think you could be good? Quiet as anything while you tended to me? Or would I need to fit you with a gag, just to be sure?
The scandal alone is enough to have me panting in your ear. I'd be hard pressed to stay silent from the first moment I heard the Magisterium wracked with dismay over your decrees, let alone sprawled between your open thighs on that grand, grim throne.
Or the other way round, if his Grace felt so inclined.
[Gods, he might need to tuck himself away in an alley if this sort of game keeps up.]
What I'm saying is if the worlds ever turn on their heads and bring such a fantasy to fruition: do make it a pretty gag, won't you?
For you, I would ensure it was as pretty as you wished— made of steel, naturally, so you couldn't bite your way through it, but adorned with all the diamonds you wish. Tevinter is nothing if not hedonistic, and I suspect I could spoil you far better in such a position of corruptible power. Just so long as it was adorned with my personal seal, so there would not be a person alive who did not know you belonged only to me— and that I would bring all the wrath at my fingertips down upon them if they dared think of touching you.
[There's a thoughtful little pause as he contemplates the vast world of religious-themed kink, and then adds in a swift scrawl:]
I could mount you across an altar, too. Sebastian once told me he used to fantasize about that before he grew devout, and I can understand the appeal. Though I would not actually try it, I think. Not in Thedas, where I doubt the Maker approves of such things, and certainly not here, where the gods are endlessly roaming about, apparently.
[But then:]
The same question at you, though. Would you rather lead the devout or Corypheus' armies? And to what end?
Or if you prefer a new question: a week spent having to spend significant quantities of time with my pack of friends— and acting as a friend, not simply pouting the entire time— or a month working at that sex shop, having to endure every pitiful noble's timid questions and packs of giggling teenage heiresses that try unsuccessfully with you?
[It takes a long while for him to write back after that. Don't ask why.]
Corypheus.
Heresy flatters me in a way that religion— even the ruling aspects of it— never could. I've seen too much divinity in my time: I'd rather become god than ply another one's script.
Besides, all that means is that when I inevitably storm your tower, I'll push you on your back across that altar to complete my ursurpation, and rut you until you're a pliant, well-behaved, whimpering mess.
One with a new god to serve, I think.
[An elf can (wet) dream, after all.]
Sex shop. Your rowdy packmates know more than enough about me as it stands, whereas deftly skirting the affections of a fleet of lovedrunk nobles is just another day ending in [err, well:] -day.
[No, really, look up the days of the week in DnD. Ridiculous.]
[Oh, there's no pause on Leto's end: begins writing the moment those flirtatious words appear. Perhaps he'd otherwise be content to merely shiver in private and bring up the scenario later so they could indulge it properly— but one with a new god to serve, I think, is simply too hot to ignore.]
God you might be, Astarion, but you know how stubborn I am. I suspect you'd have to mount me again and again, splayed on that altar or pinned over it, until I began to contemplate worshiping you.
Or seduce me. Me me ravenous for your touch, your voice, your tongue, your cock— until I forgot anything save you. Devout and addled enough to sit in your lap and impale myself atop your cock for hours on end just for the chance that you might deign to lay a hand on
[Scrawls the vampire that was just effectively palming at himself only minutes prior to this moment, warring with himself to keep from abandoning his efforts to write— which would consequently be abandoning his mate along with it (hence: not making that particular decision).]
I am already married no matter what hypothetical you propose, as you so vehemently demonstrated before. And there is nothing I would rather do less than fuck someone who isn't you.
[Give him a moment, please, he's melting. In fact he's currently wrestling with a pang of— what is it, guilt? Remorse? He isn't certain what to call it, but whatever it is, it's there inside his chest.
Consequence of playing roughly with the love of his unlife, he supposes.]
proposition: Permission to change my third option to my Tevene Merchant contact for my missions from Rift Watch?
If there was anyone in Thedas that I loathed beyond Corypheus' brood or those who spoke poorly to you, it was that utterly miserable wretch.
That depends entirely on which category you intend to place him.
[He lets that sit there for a time, but it feels . . . wrong. Not false, not really, but it isn't long before he adds:]
You have never told me why. Trust that I can well imagine why any Tevene contact would be vile and worthy of death, but I would hear more, if you wished to tell me.
[Somewhere Astarion is making a faint noise of gentle, (warm) amusement.]
Above the table, he was your typical highly influential merchant with a weakness for elves. Unbelievably selective about who he'd choose to mingle with at even the finest of soirées.
Behind closed doors, ah, now that was when you'd see the worst of his proclivities. The temper, the resentment, the cruelty.
[A beat— ]
You know. He always did remind me just a bit of Cazador, come to think of it.
A foul and yet typical Tevinter citizen, then. Gain the slightest bit of power and relish crushing those you can beneath your heel just to feel some form of control.
Reminded you of Cazador in his whim for enacted sadism? Or in that he liked to play games?
me looking up the old mission details after 3 years, my god
Truly? Are they all so starved for power? Or ambition?
[Contrarianism isn't his goal in picking at that point— only curiosity.]
Cazador could only dream of being so efficient as Abram Vanda had been. I'm not certain pleasure had a thing to do with his sadistic streak.
Understand as the favored slave of an oh-so-famed Altus it was never turned on me, but what I'd witnessed whilst entertaining? It'd be right at home in the palace I once called home, I can tell you that, my love.
[Abram Vanda, and ink goes thicker around the lines of those two words, Leto's pen heavy as he traces them.]
I will not pretend not to be relieved to hear that. I care little for the wellbeing of what slaves he holds, so long as it was not turned on you.
But I have a better idea of what you mean. And if ever we return to Thedas, I would not say no to the two of us paying him a visit, if you were so inclined. His name is not unknown to me, though I knew nothing of him beyond hearing him listed among the likely buyers of incoming slaves. I suppose that answers why.
[Astarion is slow again. Pen to paper. Pen off paper— touched, and yet incapable of showing it given the medium itself. Wanting to regardless, and yet not foolish enough to go interrupting the whole of their communication just to call or go rushing home as done in the past.
He loves him.
That's enough.]
Not forced, per se. [Though much like any choice along those lines, perhaps free will is....] I was good at playing the part, and I enjoyed the idea of
[what]
usefulness, I suppose? I was a stupidly naive thing back then.
[Another way to prove his worth in a world where he had nothing. No one.]
But my fangs and eyes were boon enough, I suspect. Aside from the connections to my Altus, simply loitering nearby seemed to make for a pleasant show of prestige. Nothing like Rialto. Yet I saw him often, and of course made a habit of fawning over his every business venture, mostly to note what product he was moving and when. Occasionally attempting to convince him to show favor to certain political parties, whilst keeping Venatori aligned agents at bay.
I won't say I was always successful, but courting thorns to keep them from Corypheus' rot no doubt had its impact on the war at large.
Costing only the lives and sanity of those he tortured and sold off at leisure, naturally. Nothing of value lost.
[He wonders how that's going. Probably not well, given the infighting. The mismanagement. The state of Thedas as a whole.
[Is it awful that Leto (Fenris) feels relief? He scans those words again and again and feels himself exhale in the worst way as there is no mention of beds or desks, groping hands and sour breath. Awful because he knows the kinds of horrors that Astarion is implying; awful because he can remember (in another world, in another lifetime) watching with dull-eyed neutrality as some unlucky slave was chosen to have their limbs severed or their hides whipped open, blood thick in the air for no other reason than sport.
But it wasn't Astarion.
And Leto has never deluded himself that he is a hero. He takes on noble ventures, yes, and the world is a little better off than it would be had he not acted, he knows this. But when the chips are down, he cares about those who care about him— and there is nothing and no one he loves more than his Astarion.]
I would not call it naivety.
[It's quiet, insofar as writing can be. An observation, for he will not make the mistake (though his heart longs to) of soothing every single one of Astarion's fears and insecurities.]
Another reason for us to visit him, then, if ever we return.
Is it guilt you feel, even now? Or bitterness that you could not help, even in freedom?
[Or neither, or both . . . but Leto knows both those feelings very well. And sometimes, even here, he is the elder when it comes to certain experiences.]
Would you think less of me if I said neither? [Asked when he knows the answer already, but in all things, sometimes it isn't so much about what's spoken as much as it is the conversational path they tread. The idea of broaching nightmares through flitting snippets of words exchanged through wine-soaked breath across a table or jotted down on paper— or said nothing of at all, in those moments when their fingers wind together or their knuckles faintly tap.
Only one of those is an option right now, and so that posed question is Astarion's way of deflecting the brunt of a heavy thing, coursing it away from vulnerable measures.
And a heart that knows better now than it did then.]
[They both know the answer, but Leto writes it anyway, for it's important. Important to answer the question so no fear can form; important because sometimes things need to be said more than once, not because there is any doubt— but because Astarion deserves to hear it.]
No less than you might think of me for being relieved just now, for I care so much less about what fates those unlucky wretches suffered so long as it was not turned upon you.
If I thought anything at all, [his words coming more slowly now, thought given to each one,] it would be only that you have grown since last we broached this kind of conversation— and that you could see the truth of the matter instead of the lies we have been fed all our life.
Their fates do not rest on your shoulders. Their pain is not your fault. And recognizing the cruelty and sadism that he terrified his slaves with does not make it your sin to bear.
And it does not make you a bad person to feel that way.
I simply, [a pause,] I would not see you start down the path of championing every wretched soul's plight as your own, for I have seen how that ends.
[And that's his own fears, he knows. Astarion has never been a noble martyr, and gods, he is so far from Anders that it's night and day. But still, the scars linger and ache— and just as Astarion asked that question while knowing the answer, so too does Leto say that, knowing full well the truth of the matter.]
It was, from the very beginning, a ghost. Visible and hunting every barefooted step forwards. Every footfall.]
You're in no danger of that. [Astarion pens for the same reason that No had been the leading line in Leto's own response, well ahead of everything else. Old fears never die, after all. They only shrink back and recede, packing themselves into unlit corners for about as long as it takes to be forgotten for a time, hibernating throughout every glancing mention. But when their name is called— well— the image of something feeble and thoroughly conquered proves itself nothing but a joke in the end.]
I risked my neck freeing a pack of them once. Slaves from your world. Guiding them away from an occupied city in Orlais, taken over by Tevinter. When the dust settled, I was their sole contact. They looked to me to be the one to draw them to more work or
I don't know. Another master, maybe? They had nothing. No one. It gnawed at me.
I wanted justice.
When morning came and the dust settled, I contacted one of Riftwatch's agents in the Free Marches, and washed my hands of the whole thing. [If he turns his own thoughts briefly to Shirallas, or the idea of closeness and consequence therein defined, he writes nothing of it.]
I've grown softer than I was. I tempt myself from time to time with thoughts of heroism for coin, or for the sport of following in your stride because I love the creature that you are, no matter how absurd those principles might seem to me in those seconds when I coil from the light.
But rest assured, my darling, I am selfish.
I will never care so much about the world to destroy everything in its name.
[What a strange thing: that he is glad both of the assurance of selfishness and that reminder of his lover's soft streak. Not Anders' fanaticism, a determination to break the world for the sake of his beliefs, but something smaller. Gentler. Something arguably more impactful: I contacted one of Riftwatch's agents, Astarion says, and that is worlds away from I fled in the middle of the night, leaving them alone and helpless.
Still: he is more relieved by that assurance. I am selfish, and here and now, it's as sweet a declaration as I love you.]
Just yours, always.
[An echo and an assurance both. And then, just beneath that:]
Thank you.
[For saying it. For assuring him. For promising that there is no revelation to come; for swearing that he will not destroy the family they have made for the sake of something larger. For being who he is, dark and light both— and so to that end:]
I love you— I like you— as you are. Softened and yet selfish. Sweet, in your own way, but not overly sentimental, nor a bleeding heart. Dabbling in light without being blinded by it.
And when our business is done in Baldur's Gate, I would gladly set out at your side for coin and heroism both, freeing slaves or rescuing kidnapped souls. I would like that a great deal, I think. Heroism suits you. You certainly wear it well.
[But though a part of Leto wants to linger, to what end? It will do neither of them good to grow too mired in the past, for it's never easy when they're apart, and thinking too much will only make it worse. So though he lets those words sit there for a small time, he soon adds:]
Though I cannot count decisiveness among your many virtues. All this, and you have yet to tell me your answer.
[For that hypothetical, he means. His words gentle, not boisterous; it's a transition, and he is clumsy at those, but he's trying.]
But I will allow you changing your answer to Abarm. And I will let you pick "kill" for all three, if you so wish— so long as you are inventive in how you would accomplish it.
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Besides, I was the aristocrat and the hero. Unlike someone, I've not given up on the alternate reality in which I fuck you at both ends.
[More to the point, in fair play:]
Quick death. I've had enough torture in my time, and I've never loved a long goodbye.
Take Corypheus' place and continue his campaign in favor of yourself, or become the new Black Divine?
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And yet:]
Interesting you bring that up. I have a surprise for you when next I see you.
[But then, without pause:]
The Black Divine. If only for the look on every magister's face when they see an elf in a seat of power above them all. I will not deny Corypheus' power is a tempting thing, if only to bring down Tevinter.
But the Black Divine (or the True Divine, as you would be forced to call me; the Black Divine is a mocking name, and frowned upon in Tevinter) can do that as well, preferably with a minimal of slaughter and death. It would be more difficult, admittedly, and I do not doubt I would have my fair share of trouble— though I think immediately dissolving the magisterium would force all those mages to rush to save their own fortunes and meager power instead of allying against me.
For a time, anyway. I suspect such a position would only end in assassination. But it would be a useful role for how long it lasted.
And I will not be forced to become a corrupted amalgam of red lyrium and a darkspawn, which is a plus.
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Pardon?
[Care to run that by him again? Tell him what that surprise is? Give him a hint?? Maybe?? Please???
But no. No, fine, he knows he'll never get an answer until it's well and truly time for the grand reveal.]
Forced to call you? Perhaps on my knees in service at your side?
Oh now that would be a thrilling treat. Your own personal sharp-toothed consort, capable of keeping even the finest assassins in check~
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I meant forced by the country at large, but I would not let them do that to you. If you are to be on your knees, Astarion— and you would be, in this scenario— it will be at my order and no one else's.
You would have to be discreet. No Divine is allowed any kind of attachment; we would be an illicit thing. And I know full well how much you enjoy being seen . . . do you think you could be good? Quiet as anything while you tended to me? Or would I need to fit you with a gag, just to be sure?
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Or the other way round, if his Grace felt so inclined.
[Gods, he might need to tuck himself away in an alley if this sort of game keeps up.]
What I'm saying is if the worlds ever turn on their heads and bring such a fantasy to fruition: do make it a pretty gag, won't you?
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[There's a thoughtful little pause as he contemplates the vast world of religious-themed kink, and then adds in a swift scrawl:]
I could mount you across an altar, too. Sebastian once told me he used to fantasize about that before he grew devout, and I can understand the appeal. Though I would not actually try it, I think. Not in Thedas, where I doubt the Maker approves of such things, and certainly not here, where the gods are endlessly roaming about, apparently.
[But then:]
The same question at you, though. Would you rather lead the devout or Corypheus' armies? And to what end?
Or if you prefer a new question: a week spent having to spend significant quantities of time with my pack of friends— and acting as a friend, not simply pouting the entire time— or a month working at that sex shop, having to endure every pitiful noble's timid questions and packs of giggling teenage heiresses that try unsuccessfully with you?
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[It takes a long while for him to write back after that. Don't ask why.]
Corypheus.
Heresy flatters me in a way that religion— even the ruling aspects of it— never could. I've seen too much divinity in my time: I'd rather become god than ply another one's script.
Besides, all that means is that when I inevitably storm your tower, I'll push you on your back across that altar to complete my ursurpation, and rut you until you're a pliant, well-behaved, whimpering mess.
One with a new god to serve, I think.
[An elf can (wet) dream, after all.]
Sex shop. Your rowdy packmates know more than enough about me as it stands, whereas deftly skirting the affections of a fleet of lovedrunk nobles is just another day ending in [err, well:] -day.
[No, really, look up the days of the week in DnD. Ridiculous.]
Fuck, marry, kill: Danarius, Cazador, Meredith.
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God you might be, Astarion, but you know how stubborn I am. I suspect you'd have to mount me again and again, splayed on that altar or pinned over it, until I began to contemplate worshiping you.
Or seduce me. Me me ravenous for your touch, your voice, your tongue, your cock— until I forgot anything save you. Devout and addled enough to sit in your lap and impale myself atop your cock for hours on end just for the chance that you might deign to lay a hand on
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Bah.
[He says that out loud too.]
Kill all. Cazador, Danarius, Meredith. In that order.
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[Scrawls the vampire that was just effectively palming at himself only minutes prior to this moment, warring with himself to keep from abandoning his efforts to write— which would consequently be abandoning his mate along with it (hence: not making that particular decision).]
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kill cazador - i need not explain that
fuck danarius, as i have done it before and can endure it again
marry meredith and kill her before her insanity kills me
and then kill danarius
the same question. cazador, danarius, and one of the ones we despised from riftwatch - take your pick.
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Consequence of playing roughly with the love of his unlife, he supposes.]
proposition: Permission to change my third option to my Tevene Merchant contact for my missions from Rift Watch?
If there was anyone in Thedas that I loathed beyond Corypheus' brood or those who spoke poorly to you, it was that utterly miserable wretch.
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[He lets that sit there for a time, but it feels . . . wrong. Not false, not really, but it isn't long before he adds:]
You have never told me why. Trust that I can well imagine why any Tevene contact would be vile and worthy of death, but I would hear more, if you wished to tell me.
I don't know much about that time in your life.
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Above the table, he was your typical highly influential merchant with a weakness for elves. Unbelievably selective about who he'd choose to mingle with at even the finest of soirées.
Behind closed doors, ah, now that was when you'd see the worst of his proclivities. The temper, the resentment, the cruelty.
[A beat— ]
You know. He always did remind me just a bit of Cazador, come to think of it.
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Reminded you of Cazador in his whim for enacted sadism? Or in that he liked to play games?
me looking up the old mission details after 3 years, my god
[Contrarianism isn't his goal in picking at that point— only curiosity.]
Cazador could only dream of being so efficient as Abram Vanda had been. I'm not certain pleasure had a thing to do with his sadistic streak.
Understand as the favored slave of an oh-so-famed Altus it was never turned on me, but what I'd witnessed whilst entertaining? It'd be right at home in the palace I once called home, I can tell you that, my love.
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I will not pretend not to be relieved to hear that. I care little for the wellbeing of what slaves he holds, so long as it was not turned on you.
But I have a better idea of what you mean. And if ever we return to Thedas, I would not say no to the two of us paying him a visit, if you were so inclined. His name is not unknown to me, though I knew nothing of him beyond hearing him listed among the likely buyers of incoming slaves. I suppose that answers why.
What kind of entertaining were you forced to do?
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He loves him.
That's enough.]
Not forced, per se. [Though much like any choice along those lines, perhaps free will is....] I was good at playing the part, and I enjoyed the idea of
[what]
usefulness, I suppose? I was a stupidly naive thing back then.
[Another way to prove his worth in a world where he had nothing. No one.]
But my fangs and eyes were boon enough, I suspect. Aside from the connections to my Altus, simply loitering nearby seemed to make for a pleasant show of prestige. Nothing like Rialto. Yet I saw him often, and of course made a habit of fawning over his every business venture, mostly to note what product he was moving and when. Occasionally attempting to convince him to show favor to certain political parties, whilst keeping Venatori aligned agents at bay.
I won't say I was always successful, but courting thorns to keep them from Corypheus' rot no doubt had its impact on the war at large.
Costing only the lives and sanity of those he tortured and sold off at leisure, naturally. Nothing of value lost.
[He wonders how that's going. Probably not well, given the infighting. The mismanagement. The state of Thedas as a whole.
But really, who can say?]
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But it wasn't Astarion.
And Leto has never deluded himself that he is a hero. He takes on noble ventures, yes, and the world is a little better off than it would be had he not acted, he knows this. But when the chips are down, he cares about those who care about him— and there is nothing and no one he loves more than his Astarion.]
I would not call it naivety.
[It's quiet, insofar as writing can be. An observation, for he will not make the mistake (though his heart longs to) of soothing every single one of Astarion's fears and insecurities.]
Another reason for us to visit him, then, if ever we return.
Is it guilt you feel, even now? Or bitterness that you could not help, even in freedom?
[Or neither, or both . . . but Leto knows both those feelings very well. And sometimes, even here, he is the elder when it comes to certain experiences.]
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Only one of those is an option right now, and so that posed question is Astarion's way of deflecting the brunt of a heavy thing, coursing it away from vulnerable measures.
And a heart that knows better now than it did then.]
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[They both know the answer, but Leto writes it anyway, for it's important. Important to answer the question so no fear can form; important because sometimes things need to be said more than once, not because there is any doubt— but because Astarion deserves to hear it.]
No less than you might think of me for being relieved just now, for I care so much less about what fates those unlucky wretches suffered so long as it was not turned upon you.
If I thought anything at all, [his words coming more slowly now, thought given to each one,] it would be only that you have grown since last we broached this kind of conversation— and that you could see the truth of the matter instead of the lies we have been fed all our life.
Their fates do not rest on your shoulders. Their pain is not your fault. And recognizing the cruelty and sadism that he terrified his slaves with does not make it your sin to bear.
And it does not make you a bad person to feel that way.
I simply, [a pause,] I would not see you start down the path of championing every wretched soul's plight as your own, for I have seen how that ends.
[And that's his own fears, he knows. Astarion has never been a noble martyr, and gods, he is so far from Anders that it's night and day. But still, the scars linger and ache— and just as Astarion asked that question while knowing the answer, so too does Leto say that, knowing full well the truth of the matter.]
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It was, from the very beginning, a ghost. Visible and hunting every barefooted step forwards. Every footfall.]
You're in no danger of that. [Astarion pens for the same reason that No had been the leading line in Leto's own response, well ahead of everything else. Old fears never die, after all. They only shrink back and recede, packing themselves into unlit corners for about as long as it takes to be forgotten for a time, hibernating throughout every glancing mention. But when their name is called— well— the image of something feeble and thoroughly conquered proves itself nothing but a joke in the end.]
I risked my neck freeing a pack of them once. Slaves from your world. Guiding them away from an occupied city in Orlais, taken over by Tevinter. When the dust settled, I was their sole contact. They looked to me to be the one to draw them to more work or
I don't know. Another master, maybe? They had nothing. No one. It gnawed at me.
I wanted justice.
When morning came and the dust settled, I contacted one of Riftwatch's agents in the Free Marches, and washed my hands of the whole thing. [If he turns his own thoughts briefly to Shirallas, or the idea of closeness and consequence therein defined, he writes nothing of it.]
I've grown softer than I was. I tempt myself from time to time with thoughts of heroism for coin, or for the sport of following in your stride because I love the creature that you are, no matter how absurd those principles might seem to me in those seconds when I coil from the light.
But rest assured, my darling, I am selfish.
I will never care so much about the world to destroy everything in its name.
Just yours.
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Still: he is more relieved by that assurance. I am selfish, and here and now, it's as sweet a declaration as I love you.]
Just yours, always.
[An echo and an assurance both. And then, just beneath that:]
Thank you.
[For saying it. For assuring him. For promising that there is no revelation to come; for swearing that he will not destroy the family they have made for the sake of something larger. For being who he is, dark and light both— and so to that end:]
I love you— I like you— as you are. Softened and yet selfish. Sweet, in your own way, but not overly sentimental, nor a bleeding heart. Dabbling in light without being blinded by it.
And when our business is done in Baldur's Gate, I would gladly set out at your side for coin and heroism both, freeing slaves or rescuing kidnapped souls. I would like that a great deal, I think. Heroism suits you. You certainly wear it well.
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Though I cannot count decisiveness among your many virtues. All this, and you have yet to tell me your answer.
[For that hypothetical, he means. His words gentle, not boisterous; it's a transition, and he is clumsy at those, but he's trying.]
But I will allow you changing your answer to Abarm. And I will let you pick "kill" for all three, if you so wish— so long as you are inventive in how you would accomplish it.
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