[He likes hearing it. The words ring in his ears like something he hadn't known he'd needed (mine, and he could turn the sound of it over again and again between his fingers as if studying a banded ring and never tire of the way it feels for pressure), blooming in fine features and settling warm into the tips of his sharp ears; those places where he's gone more flush than when he's sucking cock: pink across the bridge of his nose, the bow of his lips, the shell of his ear and the underside of his slim throat— bare and slightly bobbing when he swallows, smiling (stupidly) against the press of every nudge.
There's little danger in this world of theirs that doesn't come from within. Nobility fears the greed of common rabble readily enough, but it's their own greed that poisons entire lineages at the root, and shunts its heirs in vain disgrace. The sort of thing Fenris reasonably can't safeguard against, and the sort of thing he can't— without seizing his established place— protect Fenris from in turn.
But....
(His fingers sink a little deeper under rough-edged fabric. His opposing hand roams higher, burying itself in silver hair and clutching, emblematic of the kind of selfishness he was born to know. The kind of selflessness he wasn't.)]
It means whatever pain you've known before you and I met?
You won't know it again.
[And he still feels the echo of their first discussion, outlining all the things he was told he couldn't promise, undercutting the sincerity swept across his lips as they harass dusk-kissed, sunset skin— but he wants it to be true. Enough that there's nothing he wouldn't give to make it so, and underneath that lens of limitless desire, maybe it could be, he tells himself. Maybe it is.
So it is, he thinks again, letting the pressure of their ankles pinch a little more, grasping.] Because you'll always have a magistrate under your thumb and in your bed, ready to condemn the world itself at your request.
[His laugh is mild, it pushes back against Fenris' buried profile, warm as sunlight.]
[It's less of a starry-eyed promise this time, Fenris thinks— or maybe he's just learned more about Astarion, and all the ways in which his resolve can be steely if he so wishes. Bratty and rich and spoiled to an indulgent fault, oh, yes, but not stupid. Not naive, not the way some of his peers are, thinking themselves worldly because they've seen so much through the lens of magitech. I'll keep you safe, I'll keep you in comfort, and it isn't a blanket promise, waving away all the dangers and pitfalls of the world.
It's comforting. Loving. Adoring, and just as earnest as Fenris' own promise was: nothing will harm you, not so long as it's within my power to keep you safe.
What more can he ask for?
It's different than last time. Or he's different— or maybe it's just that they know each other so much better now, and there's a foundation to build those promises upon. It means that when Astarion laughs, warm and sweet, everything in Fenris alights, another wave of adoration crashing over him like an endless tsunami, dizzying in the best way.]
Well, not that . . . I would prefer your skull intact, even if it comes at an insult to my pride.
[A tease to hide just how endearing he finds that offer, his cheeks warm for the memory. He's growing brighter, though he doesn't realize it just yet: nanites shifting in response to his mood, the rush of adrenaline and dopamine making him incrementally brighter by the second. He tips his head back and rumbles out a soft groan, pleased by the way slender fingers tighten their grip and keep him close.]
I will not deny the power thrills me . . . but it's Astarion Ancunín that I enjoy having in my bed, not a magistrate.
[He does not truly think it needs to be said, so there's no real urgency in his tone— but still. It matters that he articulates it, and fights to catch Astarion's eye, underscoring the point (albeit hazily, distracted by liquor and that thrilling, leashing grip on his hair).
But catch Astarion's eye means looking down at him again, drinking in the flush that colors his nose and cheeks and bare throat . . . and oh, Fenris can't help but soften all over again, endeared by the sight of his little magistrate.]
You aim to spoil me?
[Tell me, little one, as he slides his fingers so lightly against the line of one sharp ear. Tell me how you'll keep me safe and comfortable, as Fenris tries very hard to see if he can distract his lover through touch alone.]
I spoil you already. [Is the distrait response of a noble heir who's been unseated by the worrying at his ear; not so dazed as much as dazzled by the sentiment that guides those fingers already, the nail in the coffin for where the pupils of his eyes shift (flickering erratically), is that all-consuming softness where rough knuckles glide across his skin— buzzing through his nervous system like white noise.
Because normally he'd have something in mind already when it comes to coy responses, or even clever ones, no matter how sincere. Something to give tenderness a brace before its gentle foyer meets its basement with a thoughtless whimper, or a mood-killing fumble of his words.
But he knows, even with the thickness of alcohol on their breath, rolling in the air between them (his fingertips still tucked in places he can't see and his bare skin sticking to expensive leather), Fenris doesn't care about all that. Let his fumble be a fumble. Let his ear twitch until it snaps flat against his white curls with a shudder.
It's the truth, if nothing else.]
Where else [he starts again, tugging on thick cloth just to get his bearings while his knees dig hard against the console,] would you find yourself getting to fuck a lordling in a car worth twice as much as the average household income?
[It's not scolding, no matter that there's tinges of it tangled in the way he groans it out. Wryness, too, and rueful satisfaction, an amalgam of emotions that emerge with every sharp nip of Fenris' teeth against Astarion's jawline. Don't say such things, for though they thrill him to his core, he cannot deny there's a part of him that flinches as well. It's the same part of him that grimaces to see the way Astarion and his friends throw money away as if it means nothing; it's the same part of him that sneers at the idle wealth and foolishness of the aristocracy, no matter that he's in love with one in particular. It's contradictory, but isn't everyone?
And right now, with his face tucked beneath a sharp jaw and his teeth merciless as he bites little reddened marks down the line of a pale throat, Fenris doesn't care. He groans and huffs because it's an easy way to let out some of his own overwhelming feelings, his heart still singing and his adoration almost too much to bear.]
Not just any lordling.
[He knows. He knows, but Fenris insists upon the point anyway. His hand drifts down, skimming over bare skin until he finds the waistband of Astarion's pants, opening them with a deft flick of his fingers. His head tips up, his voice low as he promises:]
Only you.
[Only ever you. His fingers glide against swelling heat, knuckles brushing against velvet skin in slow greeting. From there he takes him in hand, fingers squeezing tight as he strokes him from root to crown— it's a slow start, for he isn't nearly ready to stop talking just yet.
And he wants to watch Astarion unravel beneath him.]
I'll put my tongue to you if the little lordling can tell me what kind of car he's lying in, so eager to be debauched.
[An affectionate challenge offered as he ducks his head down again, tongue tracking against the thundering pulsepoint just beneath Astarion's jaw.]
[Their world is paper; it falls apart each and every day in new ways, brought on by the clattering of coin in different palms. Who has what— who has nothing— the fine line that separates is the exhilarating thrill, and the arrogance of those born of high bloodlines paints that would-be thrill as a sort of pretend game between children: falls from grace happen to other people, not them. Never them. It's a rollercoaster with a lap bar, a tiger that's been dosed. It's toothless (until it isn't), and yet those cyclical trains of thought are the most the lot of them ever have the luxury of feeling.
He'd call it a high, but they do that too.
And yet it's miles from this. This rush. This shiver. This squeeze of compressed gravity between them, the click of his belt buckle (unclasped) jittering across deft fingertips is deafening. He hears it in his blood, like a shudder laced with sound. Feels the dig of a knuckle here— so molten hot he shivers at first touch before the rest sinks down around him— rough against soft measures, tugging up his sanity by the root and nearly coaxing searing oblivion from a start that's far more punctuation than prelude.
His head drops back against the seat. His shoulders drag until they scrub at pitch dark leather. He groans, and his eyes roll back behind dark lashes, and he fists both hands (and every knuckle) in the lengthy fall of Fenris' pale hair, panting just to tighten both his thighs.
Gods above, he loves this game.]
....one....[catches along the back of his own tongue, fighting to wait until he's finished his response before setting itself to the lowest reaches of his lover's throat]....that I bought and paid for.
[(Somewhere in that teasing. That goading, loving push and pull of wicked meanness, there's just one missable whisper of only you let loose into the frozen air of a stagnant car. Into the smell of alcohol and sugar and long-since dried cologne, all mingled.
The places where his skin still burns with righteous longing.)]
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There's little danger in this world of theirs that doesn't come from within. Nobility fears the greed of common rabble readily enough, but it's their own greed that poisons entire lineages at the root, and shunts its heirs in vain disgrace. The sort of thing Fenris reasonably can't safeguard against, and the sort of thing he can't— without seizing his established place— protect Fenris from in turn.
But....
(His fingers sink a little deeper under rough-edged fabric. His opposing hand roams higher, burying itself in silver hair and clutching, emblematic of the kind of selfishness he was born to know. The kind of selflessness he wasn't.)]
It means whatever pain you've known before you and I met?
You won't know it again.
[And he still feels the echo of their first discussion, outlining all the things he was told he couldn't promise, undercutting the sincerity swept across his lips as they harass dusk-kissed, sunset skin— but he wants it to be true. Enough that there's nothing he wouldn't give to make it so, and underneath that lens of limitless desire, maybe it could be, he tells himself. Maybe it is.
So it is, he thinks again, letting the pressure of their ankles pinch a little more, grasping.] Because you'll always have a magistrate under your thumb and in your bed, ready to condemn the world itself at your request.
[His laugh is mild, it pushes back against Fenris' buried profile, warm as sunlight.]
Or take a glass to the head for you. Either one.
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It's comforting. Loving. Adoring, and just as earnest as Fenris' own promise was: nothing will harm you, not so long as it's within my power to keep you safe.
What more can he ask for?
It's different than last time. Or he's different— or maybe it's just that they know each other so much better now, and there's a foundation to build those promises upon. It means that when Astarion laughs, warm and sweet, everything in Fenris alights, another wave of adoration crashing over him like an endless tsunami, dizzying in the best way.]
Well, not that . . . I would prefer your skull intact, even if it comes at an insult to my pride.
[A tease to hide just how endearing he finds that offer, his cheeks warm for the memory. He's growing brighter, though he doesn't realize it just yet: nanites shifting in response to his mood, the rush of adrenaline and dopamine making him incrementally brighter by the second. He tips his head back and rumbles out a soft groan, pleased by the way slender fingers tighten their grip and keep him close.]
I will not deny the power thrills me . . . but it's Astarion Ancunín that I enjoy having in my bed, not a magistrate.
[He does not truly think it needs to be said, so there's no real urgency in his tone— but still. It matters that he articulates it, and fights to catch Astarion's eye, underscoring the point (albeit hazily, distracted by liquor and that thrilling, leashing grip on his hair).
But catch Astarion's eye means looking down at him again, drinking in the flush that colors his nose and cheeks and bare throat . . . and oh, Fenris can't help but soften all over again, endeared by the sight of his little magistrate.]
You aim to spoil me?
[Tell me, little one, as he slides his fingers so lightly against the line of one sharp ear. Tell me how you'll keep me safe and comfortable, as Fenris tries very hard to see if he can distract his lover through touch alone.]
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Because normally he'd have something in mind already when it comes to coy responses, or even clever ones, no matter how sincere. Something to give tenderness a brace before its gentle foyer meets its basement with a thoughtless whimper, or a mood-killing fumble of his words.
But he knows, even with the thickness of alcohol on their breath, rolling in the air between them (his fingertips still tucked in places he can't see and his bare skin sticking to expensive leather), Fenris doesn't care about all that. Let his fumble be a fumble. Let his ear twitch until it snaps flat against his white curls with a shudder.
It's the truth, if nothing else.]
Where else [he starts again, tugging on thick cloth just to get his bearings while his knees dig hard against the console,] would you find yourself getting to fuck a lordling in a car worth twice as much as the average household income?
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[It's not scolding, no matter that there's tinges of it tangled in the way he groans it out. Wryness, too, and rueful satisfaction, an amalgam of emotions that emerge with every sharp nip of Fenris' teeth against Astarion's jawline. Don't say such things, for though they thrill him to his core, he cannot deny there's a part of him that flinches as well. It's the same part of him that grimaces to see the way Astarion and his friends throw money away as if it means nothing; it's the same part of him that sneers at the idle wealth and foolishness of the aristocracy, no matter that he's in love with one in particular. It's contradictory, but isn't everyone?
And right now, with his face tucked beneath a sharp jaw and his teeth merciless as he bites little reddened marks down the line of a pale throat, Fenris doesn't care. He groans and huffs because it's an easy way to let out some of his own overwhelming feelings, his heart still singing and his adoration almost too much to bear.]
Not just any lordling.
[He knows. He knows, but Fenris insists upon the point anyway. His hand drifts down, skimming over bare skin until he finds the waistband of Astarion's pants, opening them with a deft flick of his fingers. His head tips up, his voice low as he promises:]
Only you.
[Only ever you. His fingers glide against swelling heat, knuckles brushing against velvet skin in slow greeting. From there he takes him in hand, fingers squeezing tight as he strokes him from root to crown— it's a slow start, for he isn't nearly ready to stop talking just yet.
And he wants to watch Astarion unravel beneath him.]
I'll put my tongue to you if the little lordling can tell me what kind of car he's lying in, so eager to be debauched.
[An affectionate challenge offered as he ducks his head down again, tongue tracking against the thundering pulsepoint just beneath Astarion's jaw.]
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He'd call it a high, but they do that too.
And yet it's miles from this. This rush. This shiver. This squeeze of compressed gravity between them, the click of his belt buckle (unclasped) jittering across deft fingertips is deafening. He hears it in his blood, like a shudder laced with sound. Feels the dig of a knuckle here— so molten hot he shivers at first touch before the rest sinks down around him— rough against soft measures, tugging up his sanity by the root and nearly coaxing searing oblivion from a start that's far more punctuation than prelude.
His head drops back against the seat. His shoulders drag until they scrub at pitch dark leather. He groans, and his eyes roll back behind dark lashes, and he fists both hands (and every knuckle) in the lengthy fall of Fenris' pale hair, panting just to tighten both his thighs.
Gods above, he loves this game.]
....one....[catches along the back of his own tongue, fighting to wait until he's finished his response before setting itself to the lowest reaches of his lover's throat]....that I bought and paid for.
[(Somewhere in that teasing. That goading, loving push and pull of wicked meanness, there's just one missable whisper of only you let loose into the frozen air of a stagnant car. Into the smell of alcohol and sugar and long-since dried cologne, all mingled.
The places where his skin still burns with righteous longing.)]